i used to see it my purpose to be something of a guru... to teach of self;
and then I felt shame and came to the mind of "I don't really know any thing... yet."
and then a person approached me and told me God told them they needed to speak to me and hear whatever I had to say.
and in so doing I saw more than I would have;
but in getting focused on that;
in finding some sense of identity in that...
I distracted us both from a deeper knowing.
I can only inspire others to know by maintaining my own knowing;
and knowing supersedes logic and reason.
Knowing is cognitive union with the infinite.
Our precious rationality can only distract from that.
All that I am gifted to be... I will be;
so long as I simply focus on being;
and cease any actual striving.
I was restless; because I thought...
in the stead of being content to just see.
To be still... and know God is God.
A place where one neither needs to speak nor needs to be silent.
That is the place of true autonomy from reality.
I have no idea what else to say;
and that's probably because nothing needs to be said.
or something like that.